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My first HEARTBREAK

sometimes, we play with love

but when the time comes

and you realize that you

want to get serious,

LOVE plays even worst with you :'-(

i wanna tell you YANG

that you're the one I'm thinking of

but your heart is still with her

and i think she's the one that you love

i only want you happy

even if it's not with me

maybe one day

you'll open up your eyes and you'll see

from the first time

you laid your lips on mine

it feels like the smile on my face

will last til' the end of time

but I'm not so sure

if your the one that i should pursue

my mind tells me no

but my heart only says that it's you

:'-(

identity crisis

"Identity crisis is the failure to achieve ego identity during adolescence"
During this stage of adolescence, we are faced with physical growth, sexual maturation, and integrating our ideas of ourselves and about what others think of us.We form our self-image and endure the task of resolving the crisis of our basic ego identity.Successful resolution of the crisis depends on one’s progress through previous developmental stages, centering on issues such as trust, autonomy, and initiative.“Those who fail to achieve a cohesive identity-who experience an identity crisis-will exhibit a confusion of roles,” not knowing who they are, where they belong, or where they want to go. This sort of unresolved crisis leaves individuals struggling to “find themselves.” They may go on to seek a negative identity, which may involve crime or drugs or the inability to make defining choices about the future. “The basic strength that should develop during adolescence is fidelity, which emerges from a cohesive ego identity". They often seem to have no idea who or what they are, where they belong or where they want to go. They may withdraw from normal life, not taking action or acting as they usually would at work, in their marriage or at school. They may even turn to negative activities, such as crime or drugs, as a way of dealing with identity crisis. To someone having an identity crisis, it is more acceptable to them to have a negative identity than none at all.
Fidelity is known to encompass sincerity, genuineness and a sense of duty in our relationships with other people. Identity as "a subjective sense as well as an observable quality of personal sameness and continuity, paired with some belief in the sameness and continuity of some shared world image. As a quality of unself-conscious living, this can be gloriously obvious in a young person who has found himself as he has found his communality. In him we see emerge a unique unification of what is irreversibly given—that is, body type and temperament, giftedness and vulnerability, infantile models and acquired ideals—with the open choices provided in available roles, occupational possibilities, values offered, mentors met, friendships made, and first sexual encounters."

philosophy in life (to help other people and to be a good samaritan)

One day, I set off from my house to find a place that intrigued me. The heat of the midday sun was oppressive as I walked past some building works. I did a double take as i glanced between two unfinished buildings. There, an old woman in clothing lay on the dust rubble. The terrible thought crossed my mind that she might be dead.

Feeling quite helpless, I approached her. Her face was well wrinkeld and sun kissed. She looked quite beautiful but very ill. As a reflex, I reached into my pocket to find some money for her to survive for a few months. I felt like the "kind stranger".

Without a common language, she looked at me with the wisdom and pity that could burn into a soul. She weakly pushed back the money. I was left shocked. Her eyes were mocking me. It took at least a kilometre of walking to realise I was quite a fool. She needed shade, a bottle of water and possibly some human comfort.

That evening, I sat analysing my material version of "kindness". This beautiful woman had given me something that i will carry for the rest of my life. When I look bac upon the experience, I hope my face carries that same wise smile that once mocked me.

WHAT I WANT TO ACHIEVE IN THE FUTURE ?

hmmmm..

All of as have dreams.

Of course we want to

have a better future.

Suitable job. Big houses.

Cars. Lots of MONEY.

Vintage things. BECOME RICH.

But to be able to achieve those things you

dreamed of in the near future, we should first

study hard. Be serious in college. Pass all your

subjects and really focus on your studies.

For me, what i really want to achieve in the future

is to be able to graduate in college in 5 years. ONLY!

him . . .

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HIM.


I don't know what came to me that very day, I just realized i feel something different for HIM.
The way i stare at HIM, its different now. Is there something wrong with me ? I consulted my friends about what I feel for HIM. And they said the most fearful thing i don't wanna accept . Me ? I like HIM ? That's awful !! Its a very big NO ! How could i like him if he always make fun of me ? How can i like HIM if he's a bully ? How can I ? He's too cute to like ( blushing ). Maybe this feeling will pass by. I know I'm too young for this stuff. I am positively sure this isn't serious. He's just some other guys i used to knew .


grrrr .. help me !!





CONFUSED . . .

the biggest mistake of my life for now

The biggest mistake of my life for now is when I did not took seriously my subjects in college . I failed my two major subjects because I was really very lazy to study . I also failed my philippine literature subject in semifinals. It really bothers me because mom got angry with me . He threatened me to stop from schooling if I will not take good care of my grades. So now I am really trying my best to catch up all my wasted time in not studying and in not listening to my instructor. I am now seriously taking all my subjects.

wHo am i ?

I AM . . .

I am, a DAUGHTER , a sister, a grand-daughter, a niece, a cousin, A FRIEND . I am a partner, a student, a YOUNG GIRL , and a GROWN WOMAN . I am confident and scared, terrified and excited. I am LOVING . And caring, and THOUGHTFUL, and hopeful. I am sick and tired. I am shy and friendly, and CAREFUL AND CARELESS. I am broken and whole. I am misunderstood. MISGUIDED, and mislead. I am HARDWORKING AND DETERMINED, but a little SCARED ON THE INSIDE. I wish on stars and DREAM MY DREAMS. I pray to gad and CRY MY TEARS. I smile on the outside, while I’M DYING ON THE INSIDE. I LISTEN to others who won’t listen to me. I walk on eggshells, and I WALK ON FIRE. I believe in PASSION, but NOT TRUE LOVE.